To Nannie
Waymeet
The Shire
My dearest Nan,
This letter comes to you with all me love. It was really so wonderful to see you tonight, my heart was full of joy but also a bit of sadness . Nan, you better than anyone else in the Shire know about me story and what I went through in the past few years. All the joy and blessings that came upon me, but also the sadness , tears and heartache.
You know all about my bonny Peregrin and how much I miss him, you know the pain when I was lost and alone when he was born just to leave me on the very same night. You know how much I loved and lost . You know how sometime I feel lonely even if I do not tell anyone what is in me heart but just smile and play me music to make people happy.
With all the work going on at Blue Door Cottage I have been so busy lately, not much time to feel sad, though I still do sometime. I think I am growing older, Nan...maybe a bit wiser? I dunno. I miss a warm embrace and a true smile, but at the same time I am learning that sometime in life all we need is to love ourselves to feel content and at peace.
You once told me it is good to open our hearts to love even after we have been hurt, because love is the only answer , love is everything, love is what make us feel alive. I dunno if I will ever find true love, Nan...I only wish my bonny Peregrin was here with me, nothing would scare me then, I would feel loved and wanted and needed.
I can still cry so many tears, O how I miss my bonny baby. I often thought I want to write all about that story , about Pregrin and ...... but I can't...even now, the pain is too great. Some wounds are just too deep to really heal. Nan, I am going on an adventure, I am leaving the Shire to travel to far away lands, to see the world and return the Shire Rose pendant to whom it belong to.
Behind I leave me heart, my home, my brother Tahitoa that will be there looking after everything and after you and his dear Acorne. I wish I was not going alone, but such is life. Please tell Bennidict where I am when you see him and look after the lad for me. I do miss you already, and Simbo too...please look after him as well.
Saying 'goodbye' to you is like saying goodbye to my own soul, it is just not possible. You are my own family even if not by blood, our hearts are joined with the chord of friendship and love. The farther I'll go away from you, the harder it will tug at your heart. I will write sometime...goodbye me Nan , I'll come back one day....
With All my Love
Yours Amorey
