((dried out tears can be seen splattered over the page of the diary))
I've done something so, so stupid. I went to visit the red witch... on my own, in her residence, the hall of the heirs. I never should have done so, Dagsamir knew I shouldn't, he knocked me out with the pommel of his sword to protect me from myself and from my own mad ideas which I was having at that moment.Apperantly he carried me in unconciouss, and spoke to Nalokha, when we were in there I couldn't see or feel anything, I just hung there in his hands, but I heard this voice, Nalokha's voice. It was whispering in my head, what were her words again? something like 'Ah, there you are sweet child, so fragile' 'It's not me you will fear-' Then suddenly I got back to my wits and we were outside running, dagsamir helped me up the back of the horse of some hooded man, and we rode of back to safety.
The real problem is what this will do to my family, and to merial, she is so dissapointed in me, I could see it in her eyes, I'm so sorry for her, but I don't know what to do at the moment.
I'm just sorry, for everyone.
