I had traveled to Bree for the first time ever since Agreis passed away. Unfortunately, I had missed quite a bit. I suppose I should start.
I went to the Pony and ordered myself a red wine, something that had been so normal for me to do. I made to the fireplace and stood by this one woman. She did not give her name even though I had introduced mine, though I didn't want to pry. We were soon interrupted by this one jerk. I swear, I don't think anyone had made me as annoyed as him ever since my former uncle in the Umaarah side, Inglen.
I stepped away from him and later have met up with Aallan. As happy as the whole meeting should have been, it wasn't for something had troubled him. I felt my blood boil as he had told me of this terrible man. How was he terrible? Well... I dare not say myself or even write it here.
Raven walked in and ordered himself a brandy. I tried my best to give a light-hearted greeting though I saw him as troubled as Aallan was. I had asked him if he was alright and what was troubling him, only being answered by it was nothing for me to be concerned about or somewhere along those lines. I would have only assumed that it was due to what Aallan had said before.
Thinking that it was time to go home, I gave my farewells and stepped outside, only to be found by Conrob and Bryn. They asked me how I was doing. I told them the truth that I was getting slightly better and that someone had visited me before that helped. I stayed with them after being invited to join them, thinking that it wouldn't hurt.
As we walked in, Conrob had pulled Aallan and Raven away to talk to them, leaving Bryn and me to get the drinks. I had helped Bryn by paying for her and Conrob's drinks after seeing as how troubled she was as well. We moved to sit at the table beside the bar, me sitting across from her. Deciding to make light conversation, I had told her that the person that visited me was the same one that I will be traveling to Rohan with, describing the person to her.
The three men eventually joined us after their conversation. Despite of the grim start to it and Raven somehow stuttering now than when he answered me before, the conversation became more light as we had gone off about tea and pastries and food. We somehow got to question of some of them being like hobbits of talking about food too much. For the first time in a while, I actually laughed. Not chuckled but laughed.
However, it was to the point of being reminded of Hawk and Agreis when I was going to excuse myself for the time being for some fresh air that had reminded me of the hole in my heart. Aallan had no idea of how much Agreis was to me, more than a friend. I had gone outside and stepped to the fountain outside of the Pony. I had become lost in thought. In my head, I had thought of what would Agreis have wanted for me. I had thought about my friends. I had thought of those who I had once considered as family.
Not wanting to stay for too long, I made my way back inside, though at the time when Bryn, Conrob, and Raven were about to go. I had met Alfmaer as well even though that she was wary of me, wary of men in general. Though I had to admit, she was pretty nice. I left to home as soon as what remained of our group left.
And so now, I am here writing this. I had realized that I didn't need to stay home and hide while dealing with the pain of the loss of Agreis. That was what I only wanted. What I needed was to be with the others, to have conversations about food or tea or anything. I know that even though I have no family and I have no lover, I still have those who care about me. I still have those who I consider friends. I doubt that even though I still have that pain, I would ever trade that away for anything.
