... secrets kills our happiness ...

What do we know about love? is it thing which we can buy? or is it thing which we can find, discover ... together with our partner. What is love we will ask? ...

... and here im, at last arrived to place as many says "evil and shadow will never enter" ... Imladris, the secret place where we all can find peace and rest, leave any burden behind Elrond's kingdom and feel save. I wish to belive in that ... i really wish ... It is not the same place for me as it was before ... before i left and ... yes, i was captured and inprisoned in Dol Guldur. Nothing is the same ... anymore.

When i was young and Nargothrond had many visitors from Balar, someone from falathrim once said to me something what still wonders me even now after thousands years.

" The beautiful thing about treasure is that it exist. It exist to be found. How beautiful it is to find treasure. Where is the treasure that when found, leaves eternally happy? I think we all know it exist. Some say it is inside us. Inside us one and all. That would be strange it would be so near. And why is it so hard to find and so difficult to attain? "

And so, just like that, with no warning, no preparation, I left. Much has happened over the past few months... Too much perhaps. Still, I regret none of it. I never thought that it would be this hard for me to leave Bree... Even for such a small period. It's hard leaving behind people you love... I'd better put things in order, I'm beginning to lose myself in scattered thoughts and emotions.