Breath and Focus

I haven't had the chance to properly wrap my head around the events of these past few days. Maybe I should stop advocating how much I want to help Ryheric. He's stubborn but many men are. Maybe more action instead of speculating. Yes, action. But I don't think I'm as reckless as he is. I need to try and shift the focus off of myself. I don't want to be seen as selfish. I don't belong just to myself anymore. These people have become dear to me in such a short amount of time. I cannot become a burden. I won't. I wish the panic didn't set in the way it did. I told myself that I would never kill again. I had no choice. Everything is spinning.. I need to breath.. I need to focus. Ancestors preserve me.