I have not been able to write in my diary for a while..Recent events has kept me apart from writing down my thoughts..
Not only have I been focused on my studies, but I also have met Earinlin's father that inspired me to improve as a historian..Maybe it has hindered my insight, visions and my skill to forsee ..I have not been able to see the dark clouds amongst the ones I love...
Yes..I have seen the dark clouds arising to the east, shadows approaching..and is hard to forsee what will happen, not the wisest can... Many leaves..and many walks the path to the west..I see friends and others spiral them into dark thoughts..I do see much happiness still, but one cannot avoid to see the underlying sadness behind this joy.
I also see confusions..Many acts from their heart and cannot no longer see all the consequences and forsee the outcome of what they do..I sense much irrational acts, and I believe they do it to suppress the fact that this world is not what it once was...
I see much sadness.Some of my closest ones have done an act, that maybe should not have happened in this times..They gave eachother a promise..But when the day approached it was cleansing their thoughts again, separations was made...
I see unbalance..The dark clouds corrupt wisdom and clear mind, noone will see it, but I think it does.. So one should not judge unbalanced acts, when the state of this world are very much in unbalance already...
I dearly love my friends..and I do not like to see more sadness ...Shadows do blindfold, and one has to hope harmony will be remade. If not.. is noones fault if happiness cannot be healed....
Tonight I will see Earinlin.. I need advices and someone to hold my hand, and someone that wants to listens to my ramblings.........
