I want to cry. I simply wish to find a quiet corner somewhere in the dark and let my tears spill until I have none left.
Seaver is leaving. He is taking his little brother and returning to Rohan. I may not know him all that well, but he has been kind to me; moreso than I deserve considering I was the one to take his father from him. He is a good man, and a good friend, and I know that this is the best for him and the little one, but I also know that the roads are harsh. I fear for him so much, yet I am all too aware that I will never know if he made it home safely for I shall never see that man again.
That creature - that elf - has been to see me again. He followed me from the inn when I walked away and refused to go away regardless of anything I said. I walked away again and again he followed. He kept offering me money, saying that he wanted me to work for him and I kept saying no. I demanded he leave, I insulted him again and again and he just refused to depart. Seaver had to step in on my behalf. It took threats from both sides before the elf went away and even then he told me that he would never leave me be until I spoke to him privately. I am beginning to fear what will come of it, beginning to fear for my safety. I know not what to do! Normally I would turn to Davick, but I cannot do so right now.
It is true that he is back and would likely aid me if I asked, but I cannot bring myself to tell him of it. His return was as unexpected as it was frightening; the state he is in! Bloody, battered and bruised, he could barely stand up straight when first I saw him and now he has gone blind. I have examined him to the best of my ability and I beleieve it to be only a temporary situation, but I cannot be entirely certain. He is as terrible a patient as ever and, try as I might, I can barely get him to follow my instructions when it comes to resting and letting his body heal. He is too wound up, too angry and restless.
With all that is on his mind right now, I refuse to let myself add to it lest he do himself further injury and I cannot let myself break down either. I must be strong. He needs me to be strong. After all he has done for me...
