The Growing Warrior

Hravanis at fifty was not ready to experience the guilt and grief of getting her friends killed. They had trusted her and she had lead them to their death. It was too much for her to deal with at that time, so she stowed it away, encouraged a culture of glory in battle and continued on. 

When the clans united more solidly Finwe, seeing her usefulness, took her under his wing. In truth, despite their youth and recklessness, the young gangs of terrifying elves who shaved their heads, painted their faces and rejected their elders were likely the most accomplished fighters among them as well. Hravanis could be a good leader, Finwe saw, if only she took more responsibility. 

But for that, she needed to grow up and face what she had done. It was a grueling, terrifying and heartbreaking time for her. But she was still forever grateful to him for it. The oath she made to Finwe and his house was not born just out of hero worship, she saw and understood that she owed him something, that he would be a great leader of their people. Despite how it turned out, she has never been able to regret the promises she made to their High King.