I have not written anything in form of logs in some time. I have not had a chance to nor had I the heart. Too many things have happened of late that I would rather not go through again. I had to walk with Raevenhart, my mentor, to watch a trial for Aallan, a friend of ours. I know the story of what happened, I know his guilt is strong the murder was not caused by him...but what is done is done. I will keep a lock on my lips. I decided afterwards to limit my time in Bree. I have a daughter now, I will not put myself in the way of harm because both Rae and I need to be here for her. I meet another child as well ,Pastell. A sweet child whom my teacher has had to help. My heart pains for her after all I have learned as far as her hurts. I can not give Rae a child and I wanted to take her in. I still do though I have bigger issues of late. I see Rae's heart breaking over the fact he was not able to see Brynliegh and Conrob's wedding. He had a gift picked for them and sent from Gondor he was hoping to give. The sorrow rings in my heart as well as both Rae and I were close to Bryn however choices were made. It is not our place to try and change them not when everything is has been done already.
Even with everything that has come to pass I still find some joy in Areli and Brywulf's son being born. It's new life in this time of war risings. I hope the child only grows seeing the peace that there is rather then the wars that may break out. Still the birth makes me feel more pain at not being able to give Rae and son of his own. There are ways yes but I do not want to think about a child loosing their family. That only breaks my heart more. Ah, but the Sisters of the Rivers are here for me. I have been given a litter of larger ........cats? Is that the right word even? A man came from a snowy place with them. He gave all seven of them to me and asked if I could care for them since the mother had been killed. I took them in of course.Inga, our child seems to have fallen in love with them. I knew where to get milk and had the herbs I needed for them. Rae and I now sleep on the floor due to how big they have grown.
Ah yes the wedding! The papers I sent for have been delivered from the White City. Rae and I only have to fill them out and send them back. I have yet to have a tunic made or a cook hired, or even a place set up! Oh the planing is going to cause me to grey! Oh sisters help me!
