At this point, I am really unsure of what to do around Ildrand. I can't just ignore all of his friends and only hang around him when he's alone, but it's not my fault all of his friends are so damn annoying. He knows I do not like that girl, Morrinth, and yet he made me come over anyway to talk to them. Too many people talking to me at once, for starters, and then that other girl has to go and make a snide comment about me being able to talk for myself! He's right, it's not her fault for not knowing, but it's not like he went to my defense and told her!
Now she probably thinks I'm some half-wit who has her tongue cut out or something, and just angrily looks at people all the time. I only look angrily at people some of the time, thank you very much, and only when they act like bloody morons. I wish he would stop trying to make me like his friends. Maybe, if she didn't suddenly have to go whenever I come in, or they immediately stop talking and fall into an awkward silence, I wouldn't dislike her so much. You know what that looks like? Like I just walked in on Ildrand chatting with a girl he's sleeping around with, and doesn't want me to find out about it.
He doesn't see it that way, I don't think. And while he probably isn't doing that, it doesn't make it any less annoying or worrisome. I did wave to Morrinth when I pulled Ildrand out to go home. He was beginning to get a bit loopy from all the whiskey. We paused on the way, because he wanted to go to his study to work. As if he could work in the state he was in, anyway. He told me to go home, and wouldn't let me go to his study with him, as he had done before. I know that I am supposed to trust him, but for some reason I find that I can't.
I honestly don't know how I feel about it. I'm at home now and I really do not want to see him at the moment, whatsoever.
