I was not lying to myself or him when I told Corrben that I loved him. I do, with all of my heart, but I will not chase after someone who does not want me. I lied when I entered a relationship with Eordion; he was not who I wanted. And I lied when I left Corrben, because I really had no wish to do so. But I was not lying when I told him that I loved him. He does not love me, and I think it is very clear.
I left Eordion for him, because he wanted me back and I wanted him back. I ruined a great relationship I had, for him, and then he decides he changed his mind in one day? It only took a single day for him to stop caring for me? All I needed, was one day. I could not just run off with him and not tell Eordion that I was leaving him. And leaving him for Corrben, nonetheless. I do not trust him anymore, and I certainly do not trust him with Meredith and her doll.
I do not care if he needs time. I will not chase after someone and make myself the fool if they will not have me. He kissed me earlier today, and wanted to go off into a private corner to do all things you can probably imagine for yourself, but has completely changed his mind. I looked stupid when he finally came home, begging him to stay and crying all over the place. My father and brothers would laugh at me for allowing myself to look like that. Oh, and Ealbrand, what am I to tell him? He was so excited and happy for me.
