Dear Papa,
You told me to never depend on another person for my happiness. You told me that countless times and I am sorry to tell you that I failed that life lesson horribly. I depended heavily on Corrben and I know I shouldn't have, and I'm real sorry if I disappointed you. But Corrben's in the past now, and I'm trying to find my own happiness again.
You should know, I tried to end my life. Meredith is haunting me, she's around every corner and in my dreams. I finally gave her doll away, to Corrben. I couldn't bring myself to throw it out but I can give it to someone I care about, and I know he'll keep good care of it. I feel like maybe she'll stop, knowing that I haven't forgotten her, and trust her with someone who will protect her.
I met someone else, Eordion. Well, really, I didn't just meet him, I've known him for a while. I will try really hard not to depend on him as I did Corrben, it isn't healthy. And I know that entering another relationship right when we both just got out of one is a terrible idea, but it's really what I want to do. He's a good man, I think. After my fight with Oldur, and then Corrben's fight with him, he went to the jail with me and let me lean on him.
I know I shouldn't, Papa, I know that. Please don't tell my brothers, I've already got Ealbrand down here trying to protect me from every little thing. I miss and love you, please give my brothers my love.
Tosie.
