Words cannot fathom the joy I feel...
When I look upon his face and see that little, soft smile of his, shining in those beautiful dark eyes, curling across those kind lips...
A true laugh and smile has not crossed my lips in many, many years, and I never thought I could...
But by the gods... I'm in love.
I love everything about him... From his cute, clumsy blundering and slips, to the way he scolds me when I am caught with a few too many drinks. The way he is calm when I am worked up, my safe anchorage... the way he is willing to protect me from all that means me harm.
I saw myself as a cold, empty shell of a man, not capable of any true love... Till I met him...
From when we first met, when he was patching up a wound of mine in the back rooms of the Pony... I knew he was the one for me...
He contains a youthful innocence and energy that I lost many many years ago, or never possessed myself, yet he is rather mature as well...
He makes me feel like I have never felt before; whispered promises under the star speckled and black velvet sky, holding each other close to ward off the cold and horrid nightmares that haunt our waking and dreaming lives, youthful grins and laughs to remind us of days past, and to greet each new day we face hand in hand... Each night with him feels like my first, and each morning I wake with a smile.
Before I had dreaded going to sleep, and facing my past demons in ym sleep, to wake screaming and soaked in sweat as the visions of terror flee my sight slowly... Now I slumber peacefully nestled in his arms.
I was plagued with my addictions: Alcohol, sex, drugs and blood... All quenched by his love... Or at least toned down, as Ino longer rely on drink and drugs to trudge through each wretched day, and no longer is my bed warmed by a new person each day... It is him and only him; the only drink and drug I need... The only one who can keep me truly warm each night.
I plan to spend the rest of my days with him, living like it is our first and last days together, and by his side I shall stand... He is the one I love, my Dal'Darac... The one who calmed the violent storm that once was my heart, soul and mind, and guided my back safely to harbour, a lighthouse on a rocky shore... The man I love.... And truly love...
