I'm late again, the last time we found out that I was with child and we had a lovely baby girl, Kynna. Fastdred sensed something was up with me again. Yet again I told him when I was not sure. I'm still uncertain how he does it. Perhaps I let my guard down with him too much. I want to spill my heart to him every time I see him,
We went to see Tali today, she thinks I am indeed with child. Once a month has gone by, we should know for certain. There is no fool proof test to determine such a thing. I could merely be experiencing something that has more to do with Kynna's birth than being with child again.
It's official, we are with child again, well I am, but Dred had a part in this as well. He is happy, even went to drawing a new picture of the family. He, I, Kynna, and a babe in my arms. How can I not love this man?
I must keep this from Fastdred as the pain persists. I've gone to see Tallawyn on my own, she told me that she thinks it's because the child is a boy. Boys are notorious for being hard on their mothers. I'll tell Dred that much, but he doesn't need to know that the pain is still there. He's blame himself. Again, there is something Tali isn't telling me. She comes more often now, has me on a different tea as well. This one smells like the tea she gave to Neyaa. Is our unborn child at risk? Am I? These are the things I must not allow Dred to worry about. He has enough on his plate with the company, jobs, and his work on the side. I hope that Tali will come clean with me soon. If there is a risk, I need to know. If I have to ease up more, than it is what will need to happen. Please don't let me loose this child..
