Ardeghon Dalgren - A Diary
Part II
If I indeed carry this 'light' with me, then I want to know how to lose it. If I had it from birth, and I was therefore destined to do something, then I also want to lose it. So far this 'light' has caused me nothing but pain, loss and trouble. I also don't believe in destiny, nor do I believe in fate. Well... I do believe in fate... Eveyone has one inevitable fate: Death. From birth till death people just do what they can, atleast, I do that. It is like the lady I love said on that night... ''Life and death walk hand in hand.'' she said if I recall right... One cannot exist without the other. If there is no life, no one can die, therefore there is no death. And if there is no death, we wouldn't know a thing called 'life' since it lasts forever and we don't have to give it a meaning.
I could write a complete book about that one day and one night. The letter I received from her also said that this 'light' would draw the gaze of many women. And that one day, I would and could find a lady that can give me something she could not: A love; strong and true. Aye, I could love another, but I don't want to. When I was a child people used to tell me that I didn't know what love was yet... But I never paid attention to that. You see, if what I feel for her isn't love, then I have no desire to feel this thing called 'love.' She called our night together a moment of blisfullness and that she hoped that it brought me the warmth and love I needed, even if just for a moment. And she was right. I did feel the love and warmth I needed. And she was right again, it was only for a moment...
My heart was broken. I left her a letter saying that I went to Angmar wtih nothing but my attire and my brother's sword. No water, no food. Just me, my horse, my clothing and my brother's sword. I left my personall quill on the now empty table in my house, next to the book I gave her, the one with me and my brother on the cover.
If I indeed carry this 'light' with me, then I want to know how to lose it. If I had it from birth, and I was therefore destined to do something, then I also want to lose it. So far this 'light' has caused me nothing but pain, loss and trouble. I also don't believe in destiny, nor do I believe in fate. Well... I do believe in fate... Eveyone has one inevitable fate: Death. From birth till death people just do what they can, atleast, I do that. It is like the lady I love said on that night... ''Life and death walk hand in hand.'' she said if I recall right... One cannot exist without the other. If there is no life, no one can die, therefore there is no death. And if there is no death, we wouldn't know a thing called 'life' since it lasts forever and we don't have to give it a meaning.
I could write a complete book about that one day and one night. The letter I received from her also said that this 'light' would draw the gaze of many women. And that one day, I would and could find a lady that can give me something she could not: A love; strong and true. Aye, I could love another, but I don't want to. When I was a child people used to tell me that I didn't know what love was yet... But I never paid attention to that. You see, if what I feel for her isn't love, then I have no desire to feel this thing called 'love.' She called our night together a moment of blisfullness and that she hoped that it brought me the warmth and love I needed, even if just for a moment. And she was right. I did feel the love and warmth I needed. And she was right again, it was only for a moment...
My heart was broken. I left her a letter saying that I went to Angmar wtih nothing but my attire and my brother's sword. No water, no food. Just me, my horse, my clothing and my brother's sword. I left my personall quill on the now empty table in my house, next to the book I gave her, the one with me and my brother on the cover.
