I woke up this morning with my heart beating fast, I looked left and right realizing I'm in a familiar room, my room?
I havn't seen this room in long time, I feel my body is limb, I may have slept for a very long time
Walking out revealed i'm on the second, oh... ofcourse it is the prancing pony why am I not suprised
A I head down steps I realized the reason for my limbness, I slept with my armor on, so uncomfertable, i went on and on walking to the hall, up to the bar
I spoke and to my suprise my voice havn't changed... ofcourse it hasn't I have woke up from a very very long and painful mixed with happiness dream.
As I crackle my neck I began to think of it all and sometime would hate myself for feeling a smile on my face as I remember happy moments in my dream and at times frown at the other unsetteling sad events.
I reach out for my cup of tea and sip from it.
Wait now hold a minute, Hestral? for real? thats what I told my name was in the dream? and Layiwen? family members from Rhun?
What is going on here, what kind of book did I read before heading to bed that night, why am I sleeping with my father normal heavy armor... Mithriel? i'm just all over my head this is not Mithriel its a piece of normal chain armor i brought.
And a Fortune? what fotune? I barely can scrap a silver or two to get with my lives, I think the only time I got as much money was when I had to deliver a purse for a certan deed, it had as much as hundered silver coins as much as it weights.
This is really getting over my head, I forgot the rest of the names I dreamed about, the events are already fading.
I wonder what my wife is doing up north, I need to send letters to her, I may take along time writing it.
I heard a laugh behind me, maybe a giggle but my mind was distracted, the ladies by the fire sure are having better time than I'm.
I moved to the chair by the corner, a place where I can watch out for my tradesmen, they tend to give me the creeps whenever I turn by back.
Eventually I closed my eyes and drifted into a nap, hand on my sword... wait... this is so absurd I hav slept with my sword beside me, what kind of a person am I?
i need to focus, the events of the long dream is fading slowly, I can see it dying as I go, my mind tells me there are alot of things happened, important things, that life I lived was sure heavy very heavy because my mind feel very eased now that I'm back.
My wife pushed me into coming to bree "it will be good for trade, not to worry I will write to you" she said this with her usual uncomforting smile, its beautiful smile, it does not suit her face though, why am I stuck with this lady, did she even love me, I just feel I like her alot and our bond, promises and little kid think it is worth it, and it was.
I do not think I should keep a diary like i did in the dream, I mean i'm quite the reader but I do not think I'm good of a writer.
I have chuckled for almost one minute as I regain my mood and know the situation i'm in, I hled the chuckles with my hand, I couldn't stand it, I need to compose myself, it is bad for buisness to make my head drift away.
It was stupid, I was leading everything, I need to stop thinking I need to lead everything, sometime it is better to be as low as a peasent if it means living better than the kings, perhaps i'm wrong.
Let me try if I can say my name with my normal voice, I cleared my throat and Spoke clearly.
"I'm Hes..." no ... that was not it, but something suprised me, my voice is not as low, was my voice like this? oh Goodness ofcourse it was like this, this is my voice, the only true thing that did not change, I smiled slightly at the idea.
I spoke my name again but this time I got it right, yes one victory for me, I need to keep practicing before I lose my mind.
As I call out the names I stumbled across the name of the traders.
Now wait a moment, they made me drink something the otherday as a "Celebration" for our buisness that lasted awhile, what did they put in it? made me hillusinate in my dreams, I bet they are laughing now, I hope I wasn't able to speak when I was sleeping otherwise it will be embarresing, i'm going to get them for that.
Well, now I remember everything and sober again I think it is time I check the mail and continue with my pathatic life.
(( I'm not writing in Hestral Section anymore))
