Really? Truly? Again I write to you my journal, my friend? I s'pose there is good reason for it really....A few reasons. Well...where to start? Harm'el....yes Harm'el, my flesh and blood that my love gave to me. His fiancee whom he loved so dear.....who was going to gift to him a child was killed. Infront of his eyes actually....he of course...in his rage killed the...killers....but was it really worth it? Three lives wasted over nothing? Possibly becuse of me....Layiwen tells me the Marwens might not be happy...the ones they dont know of...it seems it was not a accident that Khar'el died and then Jane died both in the same exact way one after another....
Anyhow....Harm'el has been asked by my darlin Layiwen to stay with the healers till he is better, tohugh he wishes he did not have to I know...but his body...ach..broken it is. He is l...no I am lucky he is alive....very much so. He is all I have to remember her..all of the blood I have left of her...he is the creation of our love..our passion. This is the third love he las lost..and the most brutal. Though he is strong as always..his emotions stronger then my own...he will thrive..I am sure of it. Oh Harm'el.
Now onto my darlin Maeria.....my hope. She might not be mine by blood but she is mine by spirit. I love her just as much as my own son. The daughter of Lady..Wyndal she is...though Wyndal....did not have her willfully, so Khar'el and I adopted her as Khar'el could not hold a child at the time. She is pregnent with twins..my little girl all grown up...it seems like yesterday I showed her off to Hestral and Jane....watched her play with the toy doll I made her...and her cat...fluffy....that cat I grew to more then she...his grave lies out back next to my three lost children and Khar'el my devine love.
And now my eyes fall upon Eccaia and Rhemo....this trip they are going on. To the Norther snowy wastelands! What is a bloody hobbit doing up there!? It has something to do with that book I know it...he has not been the same ever seince he got it. Reading AND writing now? He could not do that a week ago...
Two others my eyes fall on heavilly...no...three others. Though their mention in this journal would not be welcome...on the circumstances of wich their problems are atleast....for now my dearest friend I leave you....back to my love and darlin Lay....farewell for now....
