Tending to a wounded fox

I felt like writing a bit again. A good entry for the journal I have on Silver. The recollections of my encounters with her and such....

Today I went to deliver a bounty to the Jail in Bree-town. It was there that Dawn told me about the most recent inhabitants of the jail, among them a woman who had been in a fight. Dark skin, red hair..... Could only be one person no?
I asked her for the cell and went over to see her.
Aah poor Silver, all beaten up and bruised. Must have been a rough day for her. I asked her what happened and apparently she had gotten into a miss-understanding with Lavendara and Ryheric. It got a bit out of hand and so she went off on her own to get drinks. There some fellow wouldn't take no for an answer when he approached her and well... One should know never to test an angered fox. Not a surprise then that the woman went loose on the man but, took a few good hits to her own body as well. I bailed her out. I know she is not the type to just fight because she wants to so I saw no need in having her locked up with the other ruffians of Bree.
After I got her out of there I rode with her on Aronath to my study in Hamglen. She talked a bit to me about what had happened and such but her mood was far from how I have come to known her. It was closer to that time I found her at Himbarg in the Misty Mountains.

At my study I helped her sooth the wounding a bit by salving up the bruises and injuries she had sustained during the brawl. She really can take a punch, that is for certain. Still I'd rather not have her do so. 
We talked for a good while during and after the treatment. About what happened and how she felt so bad about it. She blames herself too much for the things that happen. I see it in her eyes. The struggle of one who always knew a life of solitude, trying to change that. I can not help but feel deeply for her. I myself had that struggle too and during it ones mind can become a hellish place. The voices that tell you to do the opposite of what you want to do, just because it is easier to fall back into your old way of life. But going backwards will not gift the strength needed to become better. Nor will it, in this case, provide the answers she wishes for. 
I gave her what advice I could spare her. Of how it is best to ignore the voice that tells you, you are weak, and how to follow what your heart wants instead. 
I know.. Such a cliche advice to give but in the end it does prove its truth. 
She has this plan to make it up to her friends. Buy them something they enjoy along with a heartfelt apology for her behavior. If I know Ryheric and Lavendara well enough as I think I do then I am sure they'll forgive her for it. I hope they will. 

I gave Silver a little ruffle over the head and told her that she needed to stop treating herself so harshly before she went off to get that necklace. I did not tell her but... The look she gave me when I did that. That sulky, pouty, look... It was exactly like my daughters.
Truth is. Silver reminds me allot of her. I cherish her truly as my friend but I can not deny that the more I come to know her, the more she reminds me of my daughter and the more I want to help her and protect her due to it.
I can never tell her that though. But she fills, due to that, an emptiness that has lingered in me for a long time now. But again, I can never tell her that. 
It would be far too awkward to admit that. Let alone what may come after. What if she were to be shocked and started to avoid me. No... That would not sit well....

So for now I'll just enjoy the company she provides. The new people I get to meet thanks to her and the genuine conversations we have.

Almost feels like I never even lost my daughter....

Almost....