Rest, town, sleep, visitors, rest, town, sleep, visiting, and it goes on. Every day though I am feeling stronger, better, refreshed! Aye, the side of me face is still purple, red and yellow, and the scar well, I am growing me hair so that'll cover over that. Shoulder still hurts a blimming lot.
-She- came by to see me, the one that knows all about things to do with lasses. As far as she could tell, she couldn't tell, said it were too early to ever know if there had been a reason for taking them seeds and that it were as suggested before, possibly just all the upset that had happened, and maybe a dodgy pork chop from the butchers too. She were impressed with Maddocts work though and seemed happy he were me healer. As she were taking plants from the garden, she explained why. Seems Max had gotten ill, really ill, and she were taking care of him. When I visited it were like looking at half a man, not me friend. Though he seemed more concerned with how I looked, I were more worried he'd drop dead in front of me. We talked a bit, but I didn't want to tire him out. I'll visit him again soon. Death warmed up, I remember telling someone else that.
Narrowly avoided getting caught up in a fight! I were sat there with a few of me friends, Bal, Linc, Carria, and we were talking about how the young girl who natters to me from time to time had been attacked by someone who were all too familiar to me. Told them I knew her, that she be difficult. Well, it probably already put Carria a stinking mood given she had gotten into a fight with the woman as a result of the girl being attacked, and anyway she went off and left us to get a drink. While she were gone, Ath shows up! Well, I don't think his appearance were welcomed by Bal, who thought it rude when mention of me injuries were made and expected an apology to be given. Didn't happen of course, I mean, Ath is me friend, I know he didn't have an intention to make me uncomfy or anything. Carria comes back then, and it all kicks off! She wanted her seat back, Ath weren't giving it up without a please. One thing led to another and I scarpered away from there before blood were spilt.
Funny it is, people be quick to argue, look for a cause to fight. I've had to convince all me friends that I am alright, that I really did fall! I've got a little army it seems that are ready to go and give a good kicking to whoever it were that hurt me. I've been honest, told them about the cat, getting dizzy, feeling faint, landing on the tiled floor. Even told them I had been taking medicine and forgotten to eat, though I think only Westen asked what the medicine were for, though I could be confused there, I know someone did anyway. Westen be very sweet and concerned, but he'd be the last person I would want to have upset at folk. He offered to walk me home or wherever, but, I'm independent and I am stubborn too. Ath wants to talk I think, which is fine, I'd like to know how his journey went, especially after the letter he sent me, he knows where I live anyway so no doubt we'll be talking soon. Maddoct seems alright given that Mister Bild be gone, and I've even met his friend Maurr, a proper fine dwarf, like all the others I have met, well, maybe not Yurri, but all the rest!
Me though, I feel at peace, more alive than I ever have. I have moments, like bitter sweet memories, but I'm looking forward and not back. Gone be the days of nasty, spiteful women trying to get me upset, or of a confused lad that be trying to make me feel bad for me reacting normally to things. I feel like I am no longer in a fight, I can breathe, that them around me just want me happy and like it when I am, they aren't looking to trip me up or speak ill about me, they just be good folk who seem to have a taste for Pa's beer! Love were horrible, I were trapped loving the wrong lad. I miss him, but I don't miss that struggle. Have I given up on it? No, if nothing else I've learnt a few things from the experience, hard lessons too, but I'm not jaded yet, besides Ma is already on about grand kiddies, a bit soon ma, bit soon.
