I didn't think it was possible to hate someone so much and yet still want them back... To hate them for leaving for me for so long, without sending anything indicating whether or not they were okay or even alive... To somehow still care about them, even just a small amount when they've left me wondering for almost a year, a year... I don't even know why I'm doing this, it's not like it will fix anything...
I hate everyone that left me, but if any of them show up and give me a reason why they left, then maybe I'll give them a break, but those people that promised me they would never leave? And yet they ended up leaving me anyway? Do I miss them? Yes, of course I do. Do I want them back? Why wouldn't I? Am I mad at them? Who wouldn't be? They ruined my life by leaving me, I love each and every one of them, and all of them are like my family, my mom, my dad, my brother or my sister, but I shouldn't have been an idiot and let them in, I knew this would happen, it happened with my real family so why wouldn't it happen with them?
Because you're an idiot, Amy I know I shouldn't have let them... But I did... Because I care about them and they care about me, so why wouldn't I? My life was a mess before my dad Mr. Kris came along, and he helped me through my problems, well some of them at least, not all of them he could help me with, but he tried, he's been by my side since I was eight, while my heart was fixed each time someone new came that actually cared about me, and it broke in pieces every time they left... He saw that each and every time and he tried to help me through it... But I was stupid and pushed him away, I push them all away, no wonder they all leave me, but that never stopped him, yeah, sure he would get cross, but not once did he ever really leave unless he was needed somewhere else, and each and every time he was needed in the wars, I died inside, part of me is still dead because people are missing, people I love are either dead or missing too, and he isn't here, he's probably off helping other people again... I keep telling him to stop overworking himself, but he doesn't listen to me on that... Mom Ms. Brandi used to tell him to stop working so hard too, everyone did, but he doesn't listen to me or anyone about it, I told him I'll be mad if something happens to him because I love him , but he refuses to listen to reason, but that isn't enough for him, it never has been, he does it anyway.
