Things are never over til they're over, they say. I saw Tosie in the Pony, I meant to ignore her but I could not and when she came up to me I said some rather mean things. Then she showed me a picture, a drawing of us and she had written about her regret. So, we went to a private room and I explained how it is being a Watcher. The long shifts, the sleepless nights, the endless paperwork and never knowing if you'll get home for supper or not, it's the nature of the job. She seemed to understand, that it was not that I didn't want to see her but that I could not. I have to admit I felt both satisfied and guilty when she started to cry so I kissed her and she responded in kind.
We went to the lake, to spend time with each other and not around a bunch of drunks looking to fight or fuck all around us. On the way, I was called over to the jail to sign off on a bond. I took her with me and she got to see me on the job. It was a simple thing though it took longer than necessary because of the prisoner's status and then of course, Brigwald shows up to throw his weight around. Not that I'd already handled the issue and on my own time. One of the prisoners made some lewd remarks about Tosie's carpet matching the drapes so I handled it with a good hard rap across the knuckles that shut him up. I caught the look in Tosie's eyes, I think she rather enjoyed the experience. And it also showed her that nothing ever takes five minutes when it comes to Watcher business.
Tosie was beautiful by the lake, I could watch her face for hours. I came to realize that not once during our time together did she have to write anything to me. I just seem to know what she means by the expression in those liquid dark eyes, the turn of those lips and every other movement of her body. I think it pleased her that she can speak to me in her way and I can understand for the most part. Our time was well spent and I feel better than I have in a long time. I look forward to our next meeting but for now I need to end this page and sign onto my shift.
