I find myself looking upon a familiar sight again..The House of lord Elrond in Rivendell. much have happened since I was here..friends made..friends lost.. a lot with other words. And its not all easy on my mind for there are friends I wish I never lost but that I have lost, then there are those who might not want to know about me and do not care where I go or what I do with myself..
Perhaps I have become a shadow of my past me? Was it that incident in Moria that changed me? Capture..torture.. I do not know but along the way I have changed and as it seems not to everyone's liking.. I have friends in Bree that I do not wish to just walk out on, friends that have made my life a much happier place after that incident. There is someone that needs me in my life but it has been long since I saw her, I hope she has not forgotten me, for she is someone I do care for and love..
A restless mind, a worried and troubled mind is what I have these days, there is no place that can give me rest either, perhaps I can get some here in Imladris..before I make a journey again, where I am going I have not idea of just yet..Perhaps to Lothlorien or out into Eregion once again. I might even stay where I am now or see if I could make my way to Gondor and the White City again..I have not been in those parts of Middle Earth for a long..long..long time, see the ocean, hear the seagulls cry in the salty air..
For the moment I am staying here in Imladris, I might return to Bree to give my friends a farewell, for I might never come back to them when all comes down to the point.. Bree is no home for an elf..I have begun to see that now.. all the whispering, the staring and the pointing.. I made a mistake to come to Bree I thought for a long time until I met Ennerin there.. A meeting that feels very distant as well now..I still remember it and how we talked over things that I had seen..
For the moment I find my peace here in Imladris, here..where perhaps the changed started, it can possible like so..and if such is the case I can start a new change here again, a change that might take me back to the old elf I once was..
I have found this beautiful writing here in one of the books, so beautiful I had to write it down myself on a piece of parchment, as to have when the times get rough if they do get again...
And perhaps you wonder what this say as it is written in Tengwar... In westron it becomes like this..
O Elbereth Starkindler,
white-glittering, slanting down sparkling like a jewel
the glory of the starry host!
Having gazed far away
from the tree-woven lands of Middle-earth,
Everwhite, I will sing,
on this side of the Sea, here on this side of the Ocean
O Elbereth Starkindler,
from heaven gazing afar,
to thee I cry now beneath the shadow of death!
O look towards me, Everwhite!
That will finish this off for now..
((pic's source is http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/a/a6/Aerlinn_in_Edhil_o_Imladris.png))
