I woke up pretty early as I fall asleep in his lap yesterday. As I open my eye´s I needed some time to remember where I was. Then I heard someone snoring. I turn around so I lay on my back, there he was. Sleeping deep, he looked so peaceful. I reached over to him to remove some hair that had fall down over his face. I let my fingers gently touchs his skinn. Why is this so hard? What do I have to fear? Why can´t I just feel safe and believe that he want to be by my side as he says? I feel how my eye´s filling up again. But I try to look at him with out thinking so much for a moment. I feel a smile slowly turn up on my face. I feel so happy now when I have him here near me. I did not think I ever was going to be able to turs a man again, not this way. Or am I wrong? Is he playing with me? Or am I reading his signals wrong? May be he just want me as a close friend? May be I should not have let my feelings flow as I have. I may be need to step back and just be friends. I don´t want to lose him....
