I've been told that my eyes have been a solid blue for well over a month. Everything is a blur though. So much death. So many screams. It all seems to combine into one. I remember it all, though it was more like I was standing outside my body. I've taken to my new job all too well. Old Scag even looks at me oddly now, more like he fears me than looking at me like the kid he picked up so many months ago.
For those that I can't just simply talk to and befriend, I've learned how best to hurt them. One man...oh that man I took a bit of pleasure in hurting. He hurt his wife and hid her off. All of the anger at my father, all of my pent up hurt came out. Gods what...no who am I becoming? I think I understand why Old Scag fears me right now. He told me he's pulling me from this job before he loses me all together...
I pray it's not too late...
