A note to myself...

I found myself on my own again; surrounded by my thoughts.
I was about to send another letter to Gondor but I fear I can not tell my father everything.
There is this strange feeling, which I can not describe.
I saw him again; he was in Bree. It was just a short moment of a blink; a second but it felt like eternity.
His eyes were looking at me; examining me and smiling.
There was something in his gaze that I liked… For the first time; I saw something like trust in it.
Did I ever expect that I would long for another life than the one I enjoy at the moment?
Oh Bree, what are you doing to me?
Didn´t I promise myself to disclaim a traveling life?
Didn´t I promise to be loyal to my father? And to keep safe?

And now I find myself on my own again, with the longing to travel.
I want to learn how to fight and how to defend myself.
The flare in his eyes; the call of duty;  the longing to see his smile again.

Who am I?