The market went very well. I can now manage to keep myself alive for the next upcoming months...
I do not belong amongst the poor, as I have a decent fortune. Rose Pinegrove and her farm has always cared for my wellbeing and it will always follow me, even if I no longer will be attached to the farm.
But when you are at my age, you do not longer feel the need to live with others help. You do want to care for yourself...
This is extremely important for my self-conscience since I am alone and have Welin to care for too.
I am glad I have my music besides my work as a seamstress. The work I do is respectable and I am very proud of it. The music is apreciated and because I am an artist, people seems to forget my reputation as a single mother. People seems to be forgiving and people choose to be good these days
Whole Breeland means a lot to me, but as a musician and a creative spirit, restless and searching. I sometimes feel the need to leave home to find inspiration to my work. Is important so I can write melodies and lyrics about places, people I see and legends I see. This is benefiting for me, but also for my band 'The Shades'.
I doubt my songs Shire, Numenor and Esgaroth would be created without being places I have been at, hearing stories of other kind of folks...
I once made a song called Shores of Evendim, I created it for many years ago, when I was on the journey to this great lake with Baylenadan, a ranger from Evendim. I have often wonder if he is still there, or if his fate lies someplace else.
I decided I would go back to Evendim, to see if I could find him, or in worst case be there for some days to gather new ideas and music to my songs.
Nonetheless, I felt this urges to travel again. Feel the air blowing in my hair when I ride hard during daytime, and feel the adrenaline when I walk silently through the nightime...
I needed to see these lands I have learned to love. The blue lake, the small white islands and the sunset behind Sunken City. I have many memories attached to it, and it would be a shame not visiting it again, it would be for the last time anyway.
My mother Rose was not too thrilled when she heard I decided to leave, but she did not stop me, as she knows I am an adventurer and artist.
My daughter is used to how I am, she is way too busy with her own little journeys and hunts with my little sister Drimmeth.
So she did not bother to much about my future absence. It saddens me a little that she takes it so lightly. But after all I cannot blame her, Welin's true Mother has always been Rose, as she has followed her up closely during her childhood and her adolescence. I was very young when I got Welin, so Rose took the responsibility to raise her, and protect me.
I will not go alone, again this kind man called Erihael will escort me. His home is Evendim, and he has some duties back home anyway. So it was well suited we travelled together as companions. Besides I do not know for sure what kind of mobs stir on the path to the lands in north. So it would be both safe and decent to have a male companion with me. Especially one of his kind, a man from north, that knows how to protect and find the safest roads possible.
Our road did not seem too long. He was a truly good companion, again his showed himself to be quite open, and he easily talked about family and friends. Also, his thoughts about past and future..
He did talk to me as an equal. I am not used to that. Either I have been talked down at since I am a woman, otherwise, I observe much praise and men be in awe to me because of my musical skills. But this time I felt relaxed, and I am travelling with a true friend. Of course he seemed to be happy that I offered him work at Pinegrove's farm. But he did not talk to much about it since his focus was the journey.
The road through Fornost was more challenging than my liking. I am used to odd creature roaming the lands. But what I saw was disturbing. Squeaks and screams filled the air. Smell of death gave me bad chills, and I felt my heart pounding. I often looked at Erihael, he seemed to be surprised aswell. Seeing this beautiful lands so transformed because of the horror from east, was a true shock. Wolfs and other creatures was circling around as shadows. Erihael told me that as long as we did not disturb, they probably would let us alone. I was not quite comfortable, and I could not relax because of that.
We were nearly at the borderline at Parth Aduial, when a goblin surprisingly attacked us. His black axe flew through the air towards me. I was shocked and paralyzed. I did not expect this. The goblins grin was fixed on me, and I did not manage to do anything before Erihael was throwing me off the horse. He took his halberd and swung it so hard and fast, That I did not see were the goblin went, nor did I see the axe towards me. It was like a lightning hitting the ground. I was totally frozen and amazed. Erihael ran towards me and took my hand. I assured him I was fine. Still I was disturbed and very afraid.
At the border to Parth Aduial I finally saw Wardens patrolling, and I saw they were men from north, just like Erihael. I felt safe and finally I could breathe. But I already were concerned about the journey home..
We travelled fast to Tinnundir, and it was at this point our road were separated a little. Erihael had to continue his journey, and I decided to camp at the little Island east of the main settlement. I was glad not much has changed whitin the center of Evendim. I saw the beauty, and it overwhelmed me for a moment, and memories rushed through me painfully, but also in pleasure.
Although, I was still shaken from what just happened, but I decided to not let it take away my sleep..
Tomorrow I would see if I could find my friend, and I also wanted to see Kings crossing, the big statues made in honor of the old Kings. I often used this place when I needed music to come to me. I then climbed up on the highest point, and some of the locals often looked at me with puzzling looks.
I wonder though if I ever would be able to see Erihael again on this journey, he saved me and the enemy seemed to be very close. But I knew he had some pressing duties to do.. I would not feel totally comfortable without him though.
But I decided not to let my fear dominate my stay, I had my own personal reasons to go here, and I wanted to fullfill them.
