Conflicted Thoughts

I told myself that I had doubted that the hole in my chest would ever heal. If it was so, it would take long. Though if I were to have been trying for this long, would it have been a bad thing for me as well as others? Even if I was to let someone in my life, what could be the odds of them not suffering the same fate as Agreis? Agreis... What did he want for me? What would he want for me? Would he have wanted me to push forward for the future, not living with the past? Would he have wanted me to be happy? I really wished I knew. What I can do now is to take things day by day.