I like to sit on the top of hill near the beautiful old ruins in Northern part of Bree-Land. There is a viewpoint that shows all the burned houses in Archet beneath. The once so beautiful village that contained so much vitality, life and laughter. I sometimes wonder where the people are now that lost their homes. Are they still there? Or did they die in the battle? Or did they find new homes, or do they wander restless around?.
The village is now just a shadows of how it once were. It is a little sad to see. Ashes still makes this strange fog surrounding the houses from the ground and when the sunset bathing the village red, it shows itself beautiful once again. So peaceful....
It also gives me room to fall in thoughts. I feel content these days. I have my daughter Welin that have grown up to be an independent Lady. She often runs around with her best-friend Asket. Welin is twenty years old, beautiful, but incredible stubborn. I do not think she has listened to me once, she does as her heart pleases, but I do not worry. She is a very bright young woman and her heart burns for the right values. Sometimes I wonder how she has become the way she has? I did so many mistakes when I was younger, and by the time I was twenty. I was very unhappy.. My heart was ruined and broken. But one good thing came out of this period. My daughter. My beautiful child. Welin. I love her so much. Welin seems to be very happy, there are many people that get attracted to her warm presence. Not only people, but also animals. I am very very proud of her.
My Foster-Mother Rose is fading though. She is old and she constantly keep forgetting things. She keeps asking for people that left us years ago. She also keep asking for people that are not in our lives anymore. Sometimes I hear her call for her husband Leland that died thirty years ago. I can she happiness in her eyes when she "talks" to him. Is sad, but if it makes her life a little bit more complete. Why not? It is strange how deep love to someone can keep the spirit up high, even if they are not around anymore. She often speak to him when she is sitting in her rocking-chair in-front of the fireplace. My beloved Rose, that took care of me when I was a little child. So strong and showed so much unconditionally love, it is sad to see her just being a shadows of herself..
We all now we will lose her soon, very soon, she is old, and she is getting weaker each day.... it really breaks my heart. But this is the circle of life..
But I do not fear for Pinegrove farm, there are people who will run it quite well. Trusted friends and family that will care for the farm even if Rose will leave us. I still have responsibilities to help out and find the right people to run it. But since my sister Drimmeth is back, it will be in very good hands..
My father.. Ever since Matheric and myself did the journey to Eregion new information has been reviled. We found his sword in Eregion, and in the old Archives in the library in Eregion, we found out that he was a part of this Warband that has this goal to defend the borders, even though much information were found, it never was a sign that he fell.
I still cannot get peace. I cannot.. I loved my father so much. I need to find out what happened. I need to do it. I sense I need to do a longer journey to get more answers. I read that this Warband had this alliance with another group of warriors, a patroling group of horse-lords from West Rohan. But there was not much more information to find in these old Books. it seems no one kept them updated after this big last battle in Eregion..
I will not leave yet, old friends has come back to Bree. old friends I have missed so much, old friends that recently approached me. I am curious to see how all this new encounters will do. Perhaps changes will be good for me? I also have this journey to do with my Troupe The Shades. My fellow minstrels, Abergar, Eovina, Semjase, Carani and Kosei. They are my loyal and amazing friends. They have always been there for me in thick and thin. No way I will let them down. We have this event in middle of next month. We also have events to see as well. There is much to look forward too..
I do not have anything I miss anymore. I have my music, my friends, my daughter. I have my dreams still as well.. But I do not think I want all my dreams to come true. It's good to have dreams, is makes you move forward and develop, I only want one thing that makes me in peace. I will be there for those I love. I will search for those I love, I will be there for Welin, Drimmeth, Rose, The Shades, my father that I never will give up, and my friends. I will not be mean or cold to those who have hurted me, I will not use any energy on that... Instead I will put all my focus on those who truly deserve my love. Nothing else really matters.
I learned a lot from Rose, and by doing the same deeds as she once did I will honor her memory.
