How strange it is, to have left the fields of Rohan... I never expected to leave home. And frankly, I do not think that I have yet really grasped the fact that I actually have. But I had to, did I not? I had nothing left there. I cannot believe how Belle could just leave me, how she could just run away like that. I screamed after her, begger her to stop, but she just kept running- She was my one support and guideline, all along! Just because she became a grown, responsible woman at young age must not mean that I will. And I will not. Not yet. Even in these circumstances, I suppose I am fairly forced to. But why? What is the point in changing your life in a direction you do not wish to follow?
No, I left, to find my dear sister. To show her that she cannot abandon me like that. The question is where I might find her. No matter where I go, I think I see her face. It is like I am starting to hallucinate, believing that every tall, dark haired woman I see is her. Oh how I hate her for abandoning me like this..! That selfish, stuck up, inconsiderate… Oh crap, I miss her so much…
~ Nal
