.. I miss my Mother Eovina. Last time I saw her she left furious. She were furious on my behalf because of circumstances that keep me separated from persons I love. My mother is so unlike me.. She is like fire and are not afraid telling everyone what she has on her mind. I haven't seen her for a long time now. I don't know where she has left, she told me she were going to see her family in Lothlórien. but I know she is not telling me the truth. She is heading someplace else, but wont tell me because she wants to protect me. I can see it in her eyes and besides she has acted very strangely lately...
To be apart from my beloved Mother makes me sad nowadays, there is not many around I can talk to. Our Lord Veryacano has ordered Earinlin not to see me, and I do not dare to ask him the reason why. And I also do not dare to speak of this with Lord Earinlin. He already seems very troubled and in pain. Something odd happened after the journey they had together along with Caun Tindir, none of them seems to be themselfes anymore. They all seems troubled and consumed by dark thoughts.
I already carry a burden that I don't dare to share, not talk about. But I need to do what I am suppose to do, even if I do not know what my mission is or what will wait for me. So many question I carry, but noone can answers them. And on top of this it troubles me that noone wants to explain to me why I am not suppose to see Lord Earinlin.. or why I see so much anger amongst my kindred..It really makes me alone and confused..
Tonight I will go to Halls of Fire. I forsee it will be a very special evening, i have a felling something will happens and maybe I will have some answers. But first of all I need to be among friends. I hope maybe I will see Lithia or Lady Turuviel. Perhaps I see the bards Lhasbelin and my friend Isilmewen too..I need to smile again.
