The time passes by... Is soon summer.. and I haven't written in my diary for a long long time.. I have been through a periode where I have been pondering about what I have just been through... But it seems this sorrow I have inside me has eased..I feel better now, more in harmony..
I enjoy spending time with my best friends.. I don't want too think of the war that is upon us. Nor will I think of my duties as a Warden, I haven't heard the alluring song that gives me such heartaches either.. I choose peace.. I want to continue my studies as a historian and I want to smile again..
...perhaps I should invite some friends to a picnic this week... Yes, I think I will do that.... Of course I will invite my bestfriend Lithia, perhaps Minuialglaer too. And Tindir that is my friend in House of Vanimar. And Earinlin too.. Earinlin that I seem to bound a deeper and deeper connection too. I am not sure what is happening to me, but I wont go through the same again as I have just experienced. I have learned a lesson.. But it seems my heart wants it differently.. Is kind of frustrating that I can't control myself anymore.. I believe is because my burden is so heave to carry alone... That I can't really avoid share some of it with someone. Earinlin is different.. He don't seems to judge me, nor does he expect anything from me.. I like him..
I hope my mother Eovina come.. I know she is upto something but she wont tell me. I know is not good since she obviously hide something from me.. I can see it in her eyes.. I hope she will feel safe amongst friends.. And talk at this meeting. Is important for her and for me. I do not where we will meet.. But it must be someplace in Imladris..
