I go to the Pony still, and it hurts a little less every time, so I know that I'm getting better. Though I was not expecting to meet a man on my self-healing trips, and I was not expecting to start to fall for him like I am. He has been to my room a couple of times now, and the first time he stayed over he left a necklace. I do not know the meaning behind it, but I do know what I won't take it off. It's made of bone and I feel safe wearing it, as silly as that sounds, as if nothing will hurt me at all. I know, make fun of me all you wish.
He kissed me, in the garden in Bree. I know that he was only doing it to win his bet that he could make me blush, but I do think there was more to it, for I blushed and he only kissed me again. I think that white roses are now my favorite flowers. He walked home with me, to give Prim a gift that he had, I assume, made. It was a small carving of a bear, and she adored it. I hope she doesn't get any splinters, but it looked sanded down enough.
We were in the room alone some time before Fauna dropped Prim off. We only ate, though, nothing of the sort that I know you're thinking of. He stayed over again, and I will admit that I am happy for it.
I went to the estate today. I couldn't bring myself to go in, the guilt is too much. But I walked around the yard and down near the water. It was comforting, to say the least. I am happy I went, it did not hurt as much. Perhaps soon I will be able to move back in, or just stay a few nights at a time until I'm comfortable.
I really, really, like kissing him.
