Yesterday was a rough day for me.
When I woke up in the morning, after a night spent on the yard behind the west-Bree stables, I had a terrible headache and I knew right away that this day will be a nightmare.
As an attempt at a good start I went to the Pony to have some milkthistle tea, as my fever grew worse over the night. The tea made me feel a bit gag, but it tastes way better than Norlack's medical bread! When I thought there could be nothing worse than this, soon I realized how highly mistaken I was.
I hired a bed so I could get some more sleep and went upstairs. But when I was passing around the kitchen, I heard a familiar music coming from the room. I stepped inside and there she was - Al, in all her loveliness. When she saw me, she suddenly stopped playing and sighed at me (we had a strange and touchy conversation the previous evening). I knew what she thought. I fell in love with her since the day we met, but I can never find the proper words to describe my feelings to her.
She refused me, just as she did the day before. Not that I was surprised. I must seem like a desperate fool to her. But her very presense, her personality, her beauty... everything that's hers brightens me up, no matter what she feels ... or doesn't feel ... towards me.
She then left me there alone, and I remember her last words. "I like you Gar, but only as a friend."
To be honest, I was glad she didn't knock me out of the door. After all, what's important is that my feelings towards her haven't faded by the slightest bit.
After I've had my morning nap and walked through the corridoor to the main hall, a certain.. man... shouted at me. He babbled something about the shadows coming for me. "I've had enough 'shadows' for today, lad," I replied and walked off. But then he shouted something that got my attention. I won't give details of what he said, but when he left - in a rather inapropriate way - I realized this man is either completely mad or incredibly wise.
That was the climax.
Later on, after I've had my tasty lunch (they served some fish with baked bread and beer at the Pony), I met Morgi outside. She was wearing the same elegant dress as the last time I saw her. If there's anybody except Al or Eth whom I can undoubtedly trust, she is the one. It was a very long afternoon. We talked and talked, mostly about one thing though.
We ended up at my place, where we shared our secrets - I told her about my shadowy past (she is now the only one, except me and a few other people, who knows it), and she told me a secret I swore never to tell anybody. And I shall keep my word.
The important thing about this evening though is the fact that... I have been cured! I don't feel the 'shadows' swinging around me anymore. I guess sharing my past with someone else has finally seen my bad mood come to an end.
I was also very happy I didn't have to share it with Al, as my love for her would never allow her to suffer from stories best left untold.
That night I had to make my way to Rivendell. Arathen is expecting me on today's evening and the journey to the Grey Havens will be long.
