| On this day, I am saddned so - to the point when the West seems but the only option. My dearest friend, Tanes, has...she has rejected my asking of her courtship. Oh, but how happy I was with her! I can only ask myself, why? Why do our fates divide us, so? Is it written, as my cousin so happily says? Or, does she not simple love me as I do, her? I cannot say, my grief is terrible on this hour. Her letter still burns in my eyes, with the tears. But. I shall not wish her evil, or ill. She is, and I hope still is, my eldest friend - and despite if we are courting or no, I will do all in my power for her. Oh, how sometimes I wish I had never left home. The sorrows were not as deep, then. |
