Soon this year is over..and a new one will start..
It has been many joyful events, but also many sad ones.. Friendship has been made, and some has faded away. This year could have changed my life totally if I dared to do some major choices.. But I am still on standby.. It gives me comfort, and safety. But at the same time is sad.. Because even if I put everything on hold to sort of fulfill safety. The years pass by, they will not stop.. And I will watch myself getting older and nothing will change..But the odd thing with it, is that I do feel happy.. And I don't know why I should try to achive certain things, when I am already quite happy..
My daughter Welin, that is a young woman herself..seems to drift apart.. Not because our relationship is bad, but that she has become a young, independent lady that wants to live her own life..I wonder if I worked more, if we could have a closer relationship? But as I see her happy as it is, I do not want to change that...
Linrond that has waited for years.. so patience, and always has been there for me.. I asked him to move on with his life, because I cannot put a hold on his life anymore. I want him to move on find himself a family and be happy some place else.. He has always been waiting for me, I just wonder why he is so stubborn, when he deep down his heart now that I cannot bind me to someone.. But I cannot help wonder how my life would be, if I said yes to Linrond..
Matheric.. I will never forget his deeds, when he followed me to Eregion to find clues about my fathers disappearance. It meant a lot to have someone to support, and he motivated me to reflect about my life. He also encouraged me to say goodbye to my Father, so I could go on with my life. Matheric is now gone, he died in battle. I miss him and I see my life falls back to the same again...
The Shades..My dear band, where all my closest friends are a part of. We have had a major concert in Celondim, played on several weddings, balls, housewarming parties..But also some sad events like Matherics burial..Thanks to Abergar, Mugendo, Kosei, Lillabeth, Lithia, Bullborn, Loriandra, Lustwyn. Eovina, Bilwen and Morosi.. I never could continue this without them.. And because of them I changed my mind about ending The Shades.. Nothing has changed either with my band.
The Shadows and Langdell in Bree... My house and my hometown..My home for several years, my heart.. something worth to live for..
Everything remains the same..Even though I miss certain persons in my life, I feel quite happy. I do have my dear friends and my music..
Is the way it should be... Overall a good year.. And I hope the next year will be the same..
