Daigan's book, entry '108'

''It's been a while since I wrote something down. I do not know why but ever since the breakup I didn't feel like writing. Oh yes, that is right, Blodwynn and I broke up. When I think about it now I realise it is for the best. Let's be honest, she always was a thorn in my eye. If I didn't know any better, I would've thought that she was the reason for all the problems that eventually caused us to break up. Who am I kidding? She was the reason for us breaking up. She would throw all these insults at my head during the last days of our relationship, and make me feel like it was my fault for her running away. Or am I just making this up to make myself feel better? It does not matter anymore, we're over, and we are never coming back together. She tried to get together with Adathrond, I was actually hoping they would, but her young age brings itself forward once more and I think she scared him off. Now she's with that bloke Baradar. The one who fell in love with Ilaru also. He humours me, as I think he didn't really fell in love with her, but just needed the attention. I feel a lot of tension bottled up inside of me and sadly, because of it, I am wondering if I should end his life. Is this fair? Is it me even? I had him locked up, heh.. got him out as well, not sure why, but I felt like I had to. It was so unfair the way Blodwynn treated me that day, as if she felt like I had something to do with it. Of course, I made sure that no one would ever find out it was me. I'm just too good for that. Oh! I shouldn't forget about my brother! I finally found him. I was aware of the chances of having a brother when I still lived in Minas Tirith, but there was never any lead of finding him. I received a bundle of papers holding the information about Shorey. I then found him here in Bree. I never imagined he would be so close. He is a few years older than I am though. He also differs a little from personality, but I am sure that we will get along just fine, even just for the sake of being brothers. I'm not sure yet, I'll sleep a few nights on it. This is it for today. Perhaps I'll write some more tomorrow.''