I missed that evening.
Unofficial, social gathering of our honorable community. How did I let this happen
Sis' participated. Blasted. Told me all about it. About her activities. About the common reactions to her activities. Why is she doing this to me
They behaved, those people - in all this unfounded buzz our region seems to nourish and admire, those few rare human beings refused to be led by the force of a random irrationality, and I missed my change to share that admirable endeavor for those precious, hurrying moments
We have the most important gathering yet in this evening. I still don't know how to be. I was not there to see how people behave in these ever so challenging social situations.
I will not be promoted I fear
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Smiling. She said that would help. It cannot be that hard. If one bends the corners of her mouth, that must count. Wonder if there exists any criteria about how much they should be bent
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